I have been so tired of social media lately. I know it's so trendy to hate on it right now; but it's not only the addictive nature that is getting to me, it's the constant ads and right wing agendas constantly being pushed onto me that drives me over the edge. I've overcame a lot my my emotional reliance on social media this past year, but I still found myself wanting to use it on the occasion because I love following small creators who share their stunning creations. I love to constantly consume art, especially from marginalized authors and social media really is the best way to do that. The problem is that I can't go even 20 minutes without seeing something stupid a right winger puts up. I usually mind my own business and don't put too much emphasis on politics, but I'm legit so tired of hearing republicans complain about EVERYTHING. They love to complain about how whiny liberals are, but even the most hardcore feminist are NOTHINGGGGG compared to the most civil MAGA republican at this point. The thought of their existance drives me up the WALL and I can't escape it on social media. And I'm one of those people who only watches art and make up vidoes. I have no interest in watching any history video that includes any period of time after the 1950s. God, they will not just shut the fuck up! I can't even feel comfortable posting opinions like this online because they censor everything. They are basically lynicing every brown person off the face of the earth, but I can't even tell someone to fuck off without getting flagged. It's ridiculous. And now that Tik Tok has been bought out by a mega MAGA corporation, I'm just waiting for it to be another super alt right place just like Twitter. I love social media and all the fun things I did on it growing up, but I'm not even allowed to use it anymore with THEMMMM making it political. I can't even enjoy metal anymore without all these fucking fascist trying to butt in and claim that alternative music is apolitical, WOW THAT'S INSANE. I thought about using Tumblr, but would I even enjoy myself there? Fuck if I know. Hell, I'm not even sure how political I can get on here, but I'm exhausted. All these social medias just want to censor us, claiming to want to be PC for the children. They don't give a fuck about the children! No one cares about the children becuase clearly none of the legistlation they are passing is even DOING ANYTHING. But I guess the powerful always win and all we can do is shut up and take it. God, I just want to use instagram in peace again, but it's all over. Social media sucks now and the MAGA party got everything they could ever want. I'm not usually so vocally political and I bottle it all up, but it's just too damn much. I'm so over it all.
This all just really sucks. I've been wanting to be on social media more to try to build myself up to post my art. Social media truly is still the best way to promote, but I feel so frustrated with how social media is now, that I just can't bring myself to do it. I just get so furious trying to even be present on these sites. I still have yet to feel that frustration with YouTube, so I may put some of my efforts onto there, but god, I just feel so overwhelmed and frustrated right now. I do have a lot of projects I want to work on now though. With all the time I'll be saving from scrolling, I really do have a lot more time to start working on my projects. I'm thinking about playing with those ideas on this website and maybe eventually YouTube. I've been playing around with make up and fashion a whole bunch as of late and I am so excited to start sharing my exploration. I still am not the best with html, but if that means I can share freely who I am and my creative process, this is where I will stay. I also have some erotic storylines sitting in the back of my mind that I am currently exploring and I hope to share those in the near future. I get excited about all the different projects I am working on, but it does take quite a bit for me to get some momentum, especially with larger projects.
Outside of my artistic pursuits, I am working towards getting my massage license and all that is left is to pass my exams. I do hope it goes well and I can start working professionally in the field soon. I also have my cute little job at a make up store. It's an easy job, but as an avid hater of corpertaions, I'm not sure how much more of upper management I can handle before I up and quit.
That's all I got for this installment, hope to see y'all again soon!